Job Seeker Blues

Six months since we moved here in the country and I just now feel bored at home especially when the girls are in school and my husband is in the city. Those days when I left alone in this kind of weather just makes me crazy. I now decided to look for a job. Submitted applications both online and in person, ten days have passed still not a single call.

I don’t like this feeling, I feel awful not having something to do, something useful. I feel stuck in the house although I got my exercise machine but I don’t have the motivation to climb on it.

I call this feeling “job seeker blues”, because I really want to have an income but nothing seems responding to my applications, not even Walmart or that small nursing and rehab center in town.

I am anxious to go to work that will fit with my girls’ schedule. Oh Lord, give me that one call that can potentially change my life.

I looked back at my personal handwritten journal 2 years ago, it is inspiring. August ’16 I hoped I could get a job in December ’16 but guess what? I found a job in a hospital earlier than I hoped for. Less than a month I wrote that entry, I started working as a hostess in a hospital in Clearfork, my exact dream to work in the kitchen in a hospital setting. God is awesome! He heard me!

I wish it will be the same these days too.

Days have passed I am still waiting… for that one important call because they need my service for their company. Lord, grant my wish. I know you hear me and you’re listening.

New Year, First Post for 2018

Goodbye 2017, Hello 2018! May this year bring more blessings, good health, so much joy, peace, hope and love!

2017 has been great for us. We moved to a new house, new school for our children, new small town for us to explore and enjoy, new circle of friends and most of all new animals that came live with us that we did not expect. We are now a part owner of a Calico cat and a stray black labrador and pit bull mix named Rowdy.

While most people set a New Year’s Resolution, I don’t. Because I know I am gonna fail it and it will be disappointing not to stick with my resolution. What I really want to do beginning of this year is to find a job and start working. Praying and hoping to work in the kitchen around here. I am so ready to pass my application and resume!

Next is to find cheap tickets for the Philippines. A job and a visit to my little siblings are my main goals this year. Lord God, help me make my plans to happen this year.


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… this is the first time I skip gathering 13 kinds of round fruits. It is too cold and I feel lazy going to the grocery store so I just settled with what’s available in the kitchen. Also, big polka dots for it represents $$. I feel like we need extra $ this entire year because our medical and dental insurance has gone up.

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Meet-up with City Friends

Though we did not stay long in Fort Worth during the Thanksgiving holiday week but I was able to do some things I planned before driving over there. I met-up with friends and had a good time with them. Wednesday, my kids and I spent our day with Ofelia and her kids at Central Market play ground and had a small Thanksgiving dinner at her apartment, fed the ducks and did a quick shopping at the Filipino store nearby.

Thursday, I had lunch with friends from work before at Red Lobster Hulen. As usual, nice bonding and good time! It was soo nice to finally see them and interact face to face. Something I missed so much while living in the country. After that sumptuous lunch, we headed to the mall and went shopping with them.

My time spent with these people was so worth it and things went well as planned. Would love to see them again hopefully in Christmas.

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Hasn’t Gone Out in Five Days

It is our second week here in our country home and so far so good. The kids are pretty much doing well in school. They said, kids and teachers here are nice and friendly. Not much of a difference than city schools.

While I, on the other hand having a little of trouble adjusting to our new living environment. It kinda scares me the thought that we only have a few neighbors, it gets pitch dark at night, so many insects, spiders and bugs we are battling with, and the fact that I have not gone out in five days is kinda taking me back to my old boring days here in America when I feel stuck and nowhere else to go.

Can you imagine  I have only seen two different people this week? One that came over this morning, Karl is his name to help me get in the house ‘coz I got locked out you know and one that I see everyday is our kids’ school bus driver.

I can drive, right? But I don’t see the need to go anywhere else. There are no stores close by that I like to see or none of my favorite shopping stores are anywhere near me so I better stay at home. Anyway, I think I can do this. Just need a little adjustment and getting a hang to it is what I should do in order for me to fully enjoy and appreciate this peaceful country lifestyle we now have.

What I Will Really Miss Living in the Country

… is the ability to grab the deals and freebies anytime I want to go to the mall! We are 11 minutes away from the mall here in Fort Worth compare that to the closest mall where we are gonna be moving soon, 45 minutes drive to there and this is not even a big mall to say. Shopping online is different than grabbing those freebies that are offered only in-store.

Aside from the mall, I will also miss going to the Asian market where I buy most of my Filipino goodies, seafood and vegetables. There is no way I can get all that in the country. There is a small Asian grocery store probably not far from the mall but then I have a feeling this will just be dry goods and a few frozen products kind of store.

So what I do while we are still in the city, I stock up! We just went to Hongkong Market yesterday and spent $260 in groceries. That includes, dry/canned goods, seafood, vegetables and tropical fruits! Hopefully it will last us for three months and I will bug my husband again to go to the market!

I am feeling good for now knowing that I have everything to fill my stomach with goodies.


…. myself at Disney store yesterday while watching my girls in the store…
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… yummy in my tummy tropical fruits.
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… some items that I am gonna be packing to bring in our country home…
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Hard Working and Dependable Hands

When I was still searching for a man to marry, I had high standards and I lived with it until I found the right one. That right man came along four years into searching on the internet, my ex-fiance now my husband of 12 years.

One of my criteria for in a man, he should have clean nails. If I meet up with somebody and I see his nails are dirty, I get turned off easy. When I met my husband for the first time in person, he was all but a gorgeous and a hunk, clean-cut guy. He was so perfect in my eyes and fortunately for me, he wanted me to be in his future.

Fast forward 12 years later, my man’s nails are tarnished with grease and other stuff because he loves working around the house, fix broken fixtures, toys and or anything that needs repairs and help his friend tweaking a military truck.

He came home one afternoon with nails looking like that.

Yes, his nails look dirty pictured below but I am not turned off by them. In fact, I admire him so much and truly appreciate of what he does for our family and for other people. When he helps, he helps them without expecting anything in return. Dependable is what he is. I live a worry-free life and not thinking about when is the clogged toilet gonna be fixed, as long as he is around, rest assured things are done accordingly and in no time. That’s what he is. I don’t even have to worry if my car is dirty because he will see the dirt,scratches, dents and dings first before me.

I love my husband even after twelve years later…

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Cruel World Out There

Experiences are great teachers. Do I regret going out of my comfort zone and joined the workforce of America? No, because I now have an idea how it is to be out there, and it’s cruel!

No matter what I do and how hard I work, I cannot please everybody. When I ask for help, I get cussed at. When I do part of their job, no one notices it. When I work, I work hard. When I speak up, they’ll report me to the superiors.

I don’t know where to put myself anymore and I got questions in my mind why? And many whys???

What did I do to deserve this? I understand they don’t like me and I don’t expect for them to say nice things about me but wow, it was unexpected! I believe I got treated unfairly yesterday just because of what??? Can someone please explain to me why I deserved to be treated like that yesterday????

So hurt and it was excruciatingly painful!

My Feet and Legs Hurt, They Cry

I survived working five straight days walking! My feet and legs hurt, they cry. How I wish I could go to a massage place and have my feet be massaged real good. It would be awesome. However, I try not to spend any money on that thing for it is expensive. I would rather save up every penny I have for I have a goal.

The kind of job I have right now requires physical strength. I feel pretty beat up when I come home every night plus a lack of sleep makes me constantly tired during the day. People at work don’t understand me, unlike most people over there, I don’t get to rest or sit down during down time. The only chance I can sit down is when I take my lunch break.

They say, I am still young and they question me why I am tired while they have been working for years and years of their life plus they are older than me. They don’t relate with me, they don’t understand. They get to sit down as long as it pleases them, I don’t. I deliver food during meal time non-stop for two or more hours. They spend more time sitting down than walking or moving around that is why they don’t feel as tired as I am.

But who am I to complain? I chose to apply as a hostess so I just endure it. I am not one of those who report to work, do less, sit 80% while they are there and receive a rate same as mine or more. At the end of the day, I feel proud for receiving my salary knowing that I work hard to earn it.

Since I dread going to a massage parlor, I would just soak my feet with epsom salt and lukewarm water. Maybe it will ease the pain a little bit, we shall see! This is economical plus I get to do my online tasks, enjoying my cup of green tea at the same Facebook-ing too.

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I am Always Tired

I am off today and I plan of just being lazy all day, guess what? That will be impossible because right here, right now I am glued to my computer trying to finish my online tasks. Luckily, I got so many of them that need to be done today while I have time, the many the tasks means more moolah. Then go to the bank and my child’s school, pick up the little one, go grocery shopping and cook dinner. That is my list for today.

Wait a minute, didn’t I say I plan of being lazy today? Life of a working mom, huh? I am tired, honestly. I work full-time in a job that requires physical strength. I walk constantly for the entire 8 hours I am at work and when I am off, that is when I feel the fatigue from working the last four days  straight.

They say, exercising helps but I don’t think it’s possible for I got a lot of things to do and I AM JUST REALLY REALLY TIRED! I can’t wait to become part time and see how it goes.

Nice to Have Filipina Co-workers

No man is an island” as the saying goes. I believe this to be so true especially here in America where the world can be so cruel at times. I am more than thankful I met this three ladies at work shown in the picture below because, I can be myself and relate with them when it comes to Filipino foods, life’s frustrations and most of all, they are the ones I can vent out my disappointments with when it comes to work. They are there to listen and most of all laugh with.

At my job, there are only 4 of us. Two in the kitchen and two in the cafeteria. We are outnumbered by other races, most people working there are blacks. So, knowing I have 3 friends of my own race  is pretty comforting, that I am not alone when the going gets tough for I know they will help me morally.

In this picture, we had lunch together and shared my monggo bean and rice one time. We all loved it because it was for a change from eating bland American hospital food. For us, Filipino foods are the best, don’t argue with that.

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