Hard Working and Dependable Hands

When I was still searching for a man to marry, I had high standards and I lived with it until I found the right one. That right man came along four years into searching on the internet, my ex-fiance now my husband of 12 years.

One of my criteria for in a man, he should have clean nails. If I meet up with somebody and I see his nails are dirty, I get turned off easy. When I met my husband for the first time in person, he was all but a gorgeous and a hunk, clean-cut guy. He was so perfect in my eyes and fortunately for me, he wanted me to be in his future.

Fast forward 12 years later, my man’s nails are tarnished with grease and other stuff because he loves working around the house, fix broken fixtures, toys and or anything that needs repairs and help his friend tweaking a military truck.

He came home one afternoon with nails looking like that.

Yes, his nails look dirty pictured below but I am not turned off by them. In fact, I admire him so much and truly appreciate of what he does for our family and for other people. When he helps, he helps them without expecting anything in return. Dependable is what he is. I live a worry-free life and not thinking about when is the clogged toilet gonna be fixed, as long as he is around, rest assured things are done accordingly and in no time. That’s what he is. I don’t even have to worry if my car is dirty because he will see the dirt,scratches, dents and dings first before me.

I love my husband even after twelve years later…

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Cruel World Out There

Experiences are great teachers. Do I regret going out of my comfort zone and joined the workforce of America? No, because I now have an idea how it is to be out there, and it’s cruel!

No matter what I do and how hard I work, I cannot please everybody. When I ask for help, I get cussed at. When I do part of their job, no one notices it. When I work, I work hard. When I speak up, they’ll report me to the superiors.

I don’t know where to put myself anymore and I got questions in my mind why? And many whys???

What did I do to deserve this? I understand they don’t like me and I don’t expect for them to say nice things about me but wow, it was unexpected! I believe I got treated unfairly yesterday just because of what??? Can someone please explain to me why I deserved to be treated like that yesterday????

So hurt and it was excruciatingly painful!

My Feet and Legs Hurt, They Cry

I survived working five straight days walking! My feet and legs hurt, they cry. How I wish I could go to a massage place and have my feet be massaged real good. It would be awesome. However, I try not to spend any money on that thing for it is expensive. I would rather save up every penny I have for I have a goal.

The kind of job I have right now requires physical strength. I feel pretty beat up when I come home every night plus a lack of sleep makes me constantly tired during the day. People at work don’t understand me, unlike most people over there, I don’t get to rest or sit down during down time. The only chance I can sit down is when I take my lunch break.

They say, I am still young and they question me why I am tired while they have been working for years and years of their life plus they are older than me. They don’t relate with me, they don’t understand. They get to sit down as long as it pleases them, I don’t. I deliver food during meal time non-stop for two or more hours. They spend more time sitting down than walking or moving around that is why they don’t feel as tired as I am.

But who am I to complain? I chose to apply as a hostess so I just endure it. I am not one of those who report to work, do less, sit 80% while they are there and receive a rate same as mine or more. At the end of the day, I feel proud for receiving my salary knowing that I work hard to earn it.

Since I dread going to a massage parlor, I would just soak my feet with epsom salt and lukewarm water. Maybe it will ease the pain a little bit, we shall see! This is economical plus I get to do my online tasks, enjoying my cup of green tea at the same Facebook-ing too.

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I am Always Tired

I am off today and I plan of just being lazy all day, guess what? That will be impossible because right here, right now I am glued to my computer trying to finish my online tasks. Luckily, I got so many of them that need to be done today while I have time, the many the tasks means more moolah. Then go to the bank and my child’s school, pick up the little one, go grocery shopping and cook dinner. That is my list for today.

Wait a minute, didn’t I say I plan of being lazy today? Life of a working mom, huh? I am tired, honestly. I work full-time in a job that requires physical strength. I walk constantly for the entire 8 hours I am at work and when I am off, that is when I feel the fatigue from working the last four days  straight.

They say, exercising helps but I don’t think it’s possible for I got a lot of things to do and I AM JUST REALLY REALLY TIRED! I can’t wait to become part time and see how it goes.

Nice to Have Filipina Co-workers

No man is an island” as the saying goes. I believe this to be so true especially here in America where the world can be so cruel at times. I am more than thankful I met this three ladies at work shown in the picture below because, I can be myself and relate with them when it comes to Filipino foods, life’s frustrations and most of all, they are the ones I can vent out my disappointments with when it comes to work. They are there to listen and most of all laugh with.

At my job, there are only 4 of us. Two in the kitchen and two in the cafeteria. We are outnumbered by other races, most people working there are blacks. So, knowing I have 3 friends of my own race  is pretty comforting, that I am not alone when the going gets tough for I know they will help me morally.

In this picture, we had lunch together and shared my monggo bean and rice one time. We all loved it because it was for a change from eating bland American hospital food. For us, Filipino foods are the best, don’t argue with that.

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I Exercised My Right, I Voted

I am a naturalized US citizen, therefore, I can vote and I have equal rights with people who were born here in the United States. One of my rights is to vote for a president whom I think is a great fit that truly and sincerely has good intentions for this great country.

October 29th I voted for someone who I think is “right”, who shares the same belief as me, a candidate who thinks of the American people should come first and is not a criminal. It is my second time to vote for the United States President and I am proud I am able to do it. God Bless the USA this coming election and that there is no fraud going to happen so that all votes will go to a candidate who deserves to win to make America great again!

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Was Given a Second Chance and Got My Job Back

I consider myself lucky because I was given a second chance at work and got re-hired. Not all employers will take you back after you suddenly quit without two weeks notice but my bosses are awesome! I am thankful more than ever and will treasure my job, that I promise to myself.

They say, don’t make a decision when you are upset or when emotion is high or you’re gonna end up regretting it. That’s what happened to me three days after I sent my resignation letter electronically. My co-workers told me that I am lucky because I got hired directly by the employer while some of them went to an agency, they have 90 days probation and it’s up to the director whether to hire them or not. So, that alone, I almost wasted that opportunity and did not realize how fortunate I am.

Meanwhile, I love going to work these days now even though the physical demands are high. I come home end of the day fatigued and exhausted but it’s alright. I am doing something worthwhile at the hospital, got to interact with people of different ages and different walks of life. And most of all, I am earning some money while being away from home.

My job is something I look forward to go to everyday because I have co-workers who listen to my stories and laugh at my silly jokes. My job keeps me busy and keeps my mind occupied for the whole entire 9 hours or more I am there. Plus the fact that I am getting my exercise while working. 98.8 maintained weight nowadays and I don’t even have to restrict myself from eating so much. I need to eat a lot as many times a day as I can to replenish the lost calories.

It’s My Time to Find a Job

The time has come, it is now my time to find a job and experience how it is to mingle and try to get along with other people in a work setting outside our home. I have been applying jobs online an in person, I’ve had one interview so far and a few invitations to the establishments I applied for but these invitations I got cold feet at the last minute so I did not go.

I have been waiting for this time to come, a decade to be exact that this day I will be proven that I am capable of finding a job I like just like everybody else. I will find one hopefully, the right job that my heart tells me to do.

My husband retired just a little over a month ago which I am glad, no more worries of his life at risk for he is now staying at home 24/7. I am anxious to get my first real job in the USA. Yes, I have been here for over ten years yet hasn’t experienced working outside. Well, except for that taking care of an elderly neighbor and actually being paid for my service.

What differs this time from my previous caregiving job is that, I have co-workers to get along with, report and drive at a workplace on time that requires driving and most of all, a boss that I need to impress. Hopefully I can get this job that I really want to do. Cross fingers with that.

Things I am Thankful For Everyday not Just on Thanksgiving Day

Quite a number of shoutouts on Facebook greeting everybody a Happy Thanksgiving Day! Well, while that sound amazing and caring, they thank as if they don’t have to be thankful for everyday.

I am thankful everyday silently and say it directly to my Lord! I am not so vocal with it. Today, let me write down the things I am blessed with and it is just right to be thankful for all these not just today but everyday as long as I am alive.

1. Healthy Marriage. For over a decade I am married to my husband, that’s a long time for me and that’s one of the greatest blessing I have.

2. Healthy Family. My children and my husband are my world, big bonus they are healthy and well everyday. Children are happy and have joyous hearts. As a mother, that make me content seeing them giggling, laughing and playing.

3. Safety. We’ll never know when’s our last time here on Earth especially the kind of job my husband has. So seeing him coming home every afternoon safe and sound is something I pray for every night and God keep him safe. I am very thankful for that you know.

4. Financially Well. While we don’t have the latest gadgets or late model cars, we are financially well compare to most American families. We don’t have a debt nor car and mortgage payments every month. Thank God to that!

5. Stable Job. I am thankful for my husband’s stable job with great benefits. We are a one-income family yet we are able to live a comfortable life because of him. He works hard and bring in enough money to support our needs. We also live within our means and don’t buy things we cannot afford.

6. Shelter and Food. Are the very basics of life. We are warm in winter and cool in summer in our house. And we never ran out of food! Such a big blessings to us. My girls not experiencing hunger in our home.

7. Life. I am thankful  to God for giving us a “new life” everyday. As we wake up in the morning, I remember I am alive and well and able to live another day in order to experience great things life has to offer.

How about you? What are the things you are thankful for not just on Thanksgiving but everyday?

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Modern Family We Are

Here’s a typical scene of our weekend. Nothing special, just simple living everyday. Upon waking up in the morning on weekends, this is what we usually do. Everybody gets on the internet and each just do their thing. If the girls aren’t on the computer, they’d sit in front of the t.v or play with toys. Both parents are on their respective computer as well.

In our household, it is quiet, sometimes chaotic, less drama and minimal fighting between the two girls. Other than that, we are normally sane people living in this humble abode of ours! A family that is like any other family but rest assured, we have something that others don’t. I so love my family that I built for ten years now. Thank God for my beautiful girls and a husband who works hard to bring food on the table and provide us a cozy shelter during cold winter months.

Just a simple life like this is very well appreciated by me! So thankful that I have them in my life.

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